What was done to him was like what happens on the train, when you think you are moving forward, but are moving backward, and suddenly find out the real direction.
"Yes, it was all not right," he said to himself, "but never mind. I can, I can do 'right.' But what is 'right'?" he asked himself and suddenly grew still.
--from The Death of Ivan Ilyich
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what is this?
There are no words. At times like these, of course I draw some philosophical conclusions: I don’t feel like there is anything inside me to be expressed (contrary to what I usually profess to believe). That is, I don’t think … Continue reading
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art
What do I most envy in life? Envy so much it makes me feel sick? When someone has used some medium or other to express something that I feel. It’s beautiful and I cannot get over it. My reaction is … Continue reading
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Sick
I have not lived on this earth too long yet, and my experiences of being sick have been relatively few. I have often been afflicted with allergies and/or asthma symptoms, and while the latter may be scary, in both I … Continue reading
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the virtues of normative social approximation
I am terrible at faking it. My being uncomfortable with faking it is probably both a cause and an effect of this ineptitude. This is the bane of my social existence. This might sound like “strength disguised as a weakness,” … Continue reading
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