Category Archives: Actual Life

4 inter-related problems

Problem 1: This morning, after I pressed snooze a couple times, I decided to shut my alarm off completely, and sleep until I naturally awakened. However, I am using “I decided” in the loosest sense, and you will understand why … Continue reading

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My dysfunctional Wake-Up Routine

Not having to BE anywhere in the morning has destroyed any stability or habit formation in regards to waking up this year. Waking up these days is a courageous battle of the will. It goes something like this: After approximately … Continue reading

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Images of Grandma

Grandma Inge died when I was 11 or 12. Sometimes she turns up unexpectedly in my dreams. Otherwise, I feel as if the memories of her are quickly dissipating — there is little left besides impressions. What bothers me most … Continue reading

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what it’s like being shot at

I just experienced having a gun pointed at me, knowing the guy was going to shoot. Luckily it wasn’t real, it was a dream. But I just woke up and I remember it clearly. I was in a house with … Continue reading

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another mess

When I write papers I usually fall into the trap of attempting to write something that I want to write. Even more, that I need to write. Here I go again: in the current paper I need to critique a … Continue reading

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